Countdown: 2

Two more days are left from this year. I know, it's just one and a half, but I won't count down in halves.
I am alone, baking a cake, watching films and waiting for the miracle. And now the miracle is made of a server admin password and about 130 kms of travelling. So let Lessie, Snoopy and Jozsó and anybody else you are waiting for come home.

Countdown: 3

Time is ticking and we are getting closer to the new year. 2008 will be the year of our new life. Well I have to do a lot of things for that. Let it be.

"This Should Be my Worst Day of 2007"

This was told me in January (I have the log). I won't tell what happened that day. And I won't even tell which day was it exactly. The man who told it is now my husband. Maybe he was right. And that day was not at all bad. That was the first time we... Oh, I nearly told :P
I was happy at that day. And so many things happened after that day. And I was so happy. Happier I have ever imagined.
It's time to start the countdown. Why start it with 4? I don't know. I just feel so.

Countdown started: 4

I Want to Be... Myself

Christmas is over again for a year. We gave and got presents, kisses, maybe love. We were a family again for some hours. And we were a new family too. This was my first Xmas as a wife. We spent Christmas Eve at home together. We didn't even go outside the house. We didn't want to. It was a memorable thing. We played, worked, talked and there were moments when we only lay next to each other, giving some kisses and thinking of the feeling inside.

When you are a child the whole family has Xmas together. It is a great feast with grandmothers, cousins, a great tree, a lot of toys, charming relatives. It is a pink thing.
When you are getting older, the family seems to get closer. There is a smaller tree, silent, kind and useful presents and maybe an all family dinner at the granny's.
When you get married the whole thing gets its meaning. If you think that Xmas is about love, your Christmas will be the ideal way to spend with your husband or wife. The feeling will touch your heart and you won't know what to do with so much things. You will maybe cry, but it doesn't matter. Nobody knows how to feel or what to do at the first time. All that matters is that smile in the other's eyes.
I can say, this was my first Christmas.

Choices

What do you think is worse: sleeping in a single bed or sleeping alone in a double bed? Well tomorrow I will be an authoritative server to answer this question, as we slept two nights in my bed (it's a single one) at the weekend, and now, I will sleep alone in our double bed as Jozsó is working and not coming home tonight.
I told him that I won't cry.

Thinking of You

It's December. I have some funny and happy memories from last December. Why should it be easy if it can be difficult?
I need to thank to Ket and Abu for the Santa Party, to the whole ONIK for all the help about it and to myself for being so creative, talkative and stupid to start an avalanche.
It happened in last November that I thought about giving some gifts to the student and teacher of the Faculty of Computer Science which we call here Faculty of Informatics (IK). So I thought about giving a cookie which is like the label ONIK. But how could we make it - we needed something to make the cookies with. Well, nothing is easier... we will make it ourselves. Let's see what is needed for that: a stupid girl with a more stupid idea and mood to start this whole thing (me), somebody who have the mood, the tools and the time to buy the needed things and to make the form we needed (that was Jozsó) and some other people who want to help and who make the whole process more difficult and more time consuming (these were the members of the ONIK).
So we went to the Praktiker then to the Baumax and bought something that is usually used border a door-step and Jozsó made the form we really needed. During the time of searching for the suitable thing to buy we talked about a lot of things - especially about ourselves and the girl liked and my boyfriend (this means 4 people).
After buying this funny thing we bought an ice-cream and went home. There is something interesting in eating ice-cream in November. I can't tell you what.
So the form was ready to make the cookie, but Jozsó had no time to stay for that as his mother came to take him and (especially) his computer home and after that he went to a concert. So I found some ONIK members to help me about the cookie and we cooked about two hundred pieces.
At the day of the Santa Party every student who came into the maths building got a candy and every teacher got a cookie from us. I remember I wore a white sweater, a black and white skirt and a pair of black boots (and also corset belt - this was important in generating the further events).
At the beginning of the party we played some games - I taught Jozsó how to play GO (hmm I need to order a GO set tomorrow...). After that there was a real party with a lot of dance. (The girl I talked about before was to much drunken so she went home, my boyfriend didn't even want to come.) I danced a lot that night - principally with Jozsó. All the chemical procedures started... And so starts our history.
And what about the future? Well we are married for 15 days not a whole year after that occasion, and I tell you, I am very happy.

p.s. I added "Jozsó" to the blog dictionary, so the spell-checking won't tell me again that I wrote something wrong when I write down my husband's name.

Becoming a Granny

I bakes two cakes and 3 pans of cookies. I gained some thousands of experience points on baking. My mother asked me if I did anything else but cooking this week. Well, yes, I also cooked. :P
My husband and brother-in-law aren't complaining, but maybe I needed to do something else too. Maybe I should start to write my essays for my courses... Maybe. But now I go and finish the cookie. :)

Cake improved

Hey, it finally looks like a cake! Thanks to Andris, the fridge and a knife. :) I am happy now.

Cakes

Sunday was Kathleen day and I wanted to make a surprise for Ket. So I asked ABU what kind of cake she likes. He discovered that it will be a "Schwarzwald" cake (it's an originally German thing). It is not a too difficult one but I have never succeeded to make it well. But it could not be a problem. I am a very smart girl and can make a lot of difficult cakes, how can it be wrong. Well... it could.
First problem was that I wanted to invite everybody on Monday so I baked the so-called cake on Monday (I think it was awful). But Ket, who didn't suspect anything asked us to go to a pub. Okay, after some beer we come home with the friends and eat the (let's call it) cake. One beer came after the other and finally we came home alone and very tired. Well, the boys weren't so tired as they sat down and ate nearly all the cake. We decided to meet today again and the cake would go wrong till that so I agreed the boys that they can eat it.
Well. Today I woke up early to bake another cake. It looked better than the Monday version for the first sight. But when I wanted to cut it into 3 slices... well it became something interesting. So we had 2 slices and something which can be put in between the two slices, but cannot be called a slice itself. No problem, it will be inside, nobody would care about it. So there came the cherry-cream and the whipped cream and some sour-cherries. Then the "not-a-slice" thing. Then cream and sour-cherry again. And it all became a heap of edible things. Okay, try to save it. I could only laugh. So there came the top slice and some whipped cream, sour-cherry and chocolate onto it. So now the middle of the thing looks like a cake, but it is still a heap of sweet things. The taste of it must be good.
Well it is the intention, that matters.

Tears

There are a lot of tear types. There are tears of pain, sorrow and happiness. And there are tears you cannot see. These are the tears for a friend. I know I shouldn't but I can't keep it. I need to do something against that many feelings.
The cake was not so bad, but the next one will be better. I will do my best. You deserve it.
I have so much to write, but I don't feel well to write them down. Maybe one other day. I'll sleep now.

Celebration

Happy name-day to Ket.

Conference and Illness

I'm going to a Conference today. To feel well I somehow got a clod or in worse case a pneumonia. I hope it's only a cold... And maybe the wellness hotel services will help me to get better.
Have a nice weekend!

Wedding Photos

The official photos of our wedding are here: http://picasaweb.google.co.uk/kekcsillag/Eskuvo

Black Party

We had a party yesterday. The concept was that everybody will be in black and for the ONIK members it was essentially black-tie. There were less people than we assumed but it was a very good party.

We started with some stand-up comedy and then there was a rock party. I danced a lot.
The start was a bit miserable. I don't talk about the comedy part - it was good, there were 4 amateurs and a professional - but the personal part.

Friends. What are friends for? For listening to you. For helping. For being there. Never forget this. While being among friends you will be never alone. And we are friends. And friends are like family.

"Ohana. Ohana means family. And family means, nobody gets left alone or forgotten."
(Lilo and Stitch)

Lyrics

I'll be there for you

So no one told you life was gonna be this way
Your jobs a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.

It's like you're always stuck in second gear
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,
or even your year
but..

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

You're still in bed at ten
And work began at eight
You've burned your breakfast
So far... things are goin' great

Your mother warned you there'd be days like these
Oh but she didn't tell you when the world has brought
You down to your knees that...

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

No one could ever know me
No one could ever see me
Seems you're the only one who knows
What it's like to be me
Someone to face the day with
Make it through all the rest with
Someone I'll always laugh with
Even at my worst I'm best with you, yeah

It's like you're always stuck in second gear
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,
or even your year...

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

/Rembrandts/

Friends

I want to simply recite three names: Ket, Abu, Leho. Thank you for everything.

My Wedding Part 2

Imagine a very nervous bride (that was me) and a handsome groom (my love) and two friends (the witnesses) and a very kind registrar. We were excited and happy at the same time.
The door opened and we walked inside slowly hand in hand. We sat down and the witnesses sat down next to us. The music stopped and the registrar came in. She asked everyone to stand up and told us that the marriage is full of love, patience and responsibility. She asked the question and offered the the answers Yes or No. I wanted to smile and cry at the same time. It was so romantic. It was so perfect. The registrar herself was nearly crying too.
Then we became husband and wife, and she asked us to sign the register. My hands were so much shaking that my first signature as a wife is nearly unreadable. But the registrar told us that this would be the original one, so we shouldn't mind it. It is full of love, anybody can see it.
The whole ceremony was so perfect. It was the most beautiful day of my life.

My Wedding Part 1

I am a wife now. My name is Csilla Szabó Kozell (wild translation :))

Yesterday was fantastic and romantic and tiring. I enjoyed it very much.

We woke up at 4:30 with my sister to make my hair. My first memory of the day is that the light bulb went off and we had no other bulb so we had to use the one of the kitchen. It was funny. My bun needed two and a half hours to get ready - this was the longest time it took ever - but it looked awesome. Everybody liked it. After my bun I made a very fast make-up and we went to the place to get dressed.
The guests were late - nearly all of them -, and I was very nervous about that. Everybody looked nice and was kind to me and finally everybody arrived and we could start the ceremony.

to be continued...

I'm Getting Married Tomorrow Part 3

Relaxing.

I ate a lot of chocolate. Talked to some people. I still have to do the washing up. But now I am relaxing. And it is really what I need.

I'm Getting Married Tomorrow Part 2

Finally I have the excitement about the wedding.They say this is natural so I believe it. I have a lot of things to do before my future mother-in-law arrives in the afternoon. I am going to clan up, do the washing up and make myself beautiful.
They say that every bride is beautiful - I don't know. But I will do my best to become nice for my groom.
Tomorrow is my wedding day!

Saying Good Bye

You came here as a hurricane, making our lives a mess. I can't say that there were no problems. There were. But there were much more good moments. Memories we will never let forgotten. And we became friends.
And now, you go away, making our lives a mess again. But the world can not be the same again. I know your reasons and have no right and no tools to make you stay now. But you should know that here will always be somebody who waits for your return.
Saying good bye is always hard, but we are strong. We won't cry... NO, we won't lie. We will always remain ourselves. I promise.

Good bye, Ket, but see you soon.

I'm Getting Married Tomorrow Part 1

Maybe this day will be a very long post.

It's 10 o'clock and I'm waking up. I need to get a shower, wash my hair (I hate washing my hair) and do some other hated things to look better. I start this day now.

Sisters

I only have a younger sister with whom I have a special but not too close relationship. We are sisters but there are a lot of things we can not agree. We have the same size - and sometimes wear each other's clothes but our taste is sometimes very different.
My mother chose a costume for her to wear at the wedding. It is a blue one with some white fringe. I don't like that. She doesn't like that either but we didn't want to argue with our mother.
The day before yesterday I went to the university and I had the idea to buy a new suit for my sister. It was surprisingly hard to explain her that I really want to spend money on her. I don't know why - I like spending on her - but she argued that the costume will be all right for her.
Finally she came to Debrecen, and we bought a little brown dress. It really suits her. And we are both happy as she will look better on my wedding as she wore that costume. I hope my mother won't be mad about it :P

Hair Style Selected

This weekend was a mess in a lot of ways but we chose my hair style for the wedding. The little problem is that it takes 2 hours to make it so we will get up very early on the wedding day. But my love really likes it, so it is worth the time.
I wanted to buy the mattresses into the new flat but I didn't find them good. But we were in some shops and decided what kind of fridge and washing-machine we want to buy. We got the wedding present from my grandparents yesterday so we have some money to spend. But we want to spend it well so I decided to look for the right things to make our flat a home.
We only have 12 days left till the wedding. :)

A Present from a Friend

I got a gold medal from one of my friends. It has its own story, maybe I will write it down some day, but now I am only happy about it. She was very kind wishing us a happy life. I want to feel that she really means so. Our relationship was not always trouble free, but I hope she thinks of me as a friend even if not one of the closests. I think of her like this. Thank you for everything, Anett.

Becoming a Lady

I'm going home tomorrow. This weekend will be longer and more useful for me thinking of the wedding. My sister will try to make my hair and I will try some make-up variations.
Among all this I will make some other things. I will finish my own-made album and I will make a sewing box for my sewing set. I should finish the wedding favors too, but I think I will make them next week.
I have to make another decision. My future mother-in-law suggested that we should bring our dresses to the pension she and the family will stay for the night before the wedding, and we should dress up there as it is closer to the town hall where the ceremony will take place. I really don't know what to do. It would be more comfortable, but I don't want to disturb them with my things as making my hair, my make-up, dresses and so on. I really don't know how many bathrooms we would need that morning. I think I will ask my family's opininon about this question.
I bring my veil home tomorrow too. I want my sister to make my hair so as to match with it. I want to look special. Maybe I really feel now as a bride should. I know that this weekend will help me feeling so even more. I will plan a lot of things and will prepare for our future life in our new home. I hope that everything will be all right. I know - everything is all right. :) I am really in love. And I am happy. :)

20 Days Left

It's not fair. They stole an hour of waiting from me - I need to wait one more hour till the wedding. But we have an extra hour to sleep now as we switch to winter time. Good night.

Starting Life

There is something exciting about shopping things into your new house. I bought our double duvet today. Actually I have just arrived at home. I am tired but happy. I walked to the house and they are just daubing the walls. I measured that the nearest supermarket is for 5 and the Tesco is for 15 minutes walking from the house. It is not so bad. I am confident now as I saw that they are working on the house. I am looking forward the future...

I Have My Wedding Gown

Yesterday I brought it home. I tried it on at the shop and Anita became very excited about that. She said she likes it very much. (Anita is the girlfriend of my brother-in-law-to-be - nice word)
So my dress is in my wardrobe now and I can not try it on in every hour as it has a corset on its back, so I needed help to try it on. It doesn't matter. It is in my wardrobe. I am very happy about that. I also rented a fur coat for that day - I don't want to catch a cold. So I am ready to get married.
I talked to my sister yesterday and she said she has the design idea how to make my bouquet. Everything is all right now. I am happy.

Getting Excited

I'd rather dance over the whole flat now. I feel so much happiness that I cannot explain. Today I am going to have tea with my love, his brother and his brother's girlfriend. It will be a pleasant evening. And tomorrow I will buy our big "marriage" duvet (200x220 cm). I am very excited now. Why isn't my dress here to try it on every day? I can't wait till 17th November.

My Wedding

These are the photos I was looking for. Nothing special but the suit and the dress we will wear at the big day. It was a mess to get them, but everybody likes them who saw them.
I want this wedding to be a special occasion so there is no question about having the best things for it.
The whole wedding is to show who we are, that's why there won't be a party just a nice ceremony and an elegant lunch with the guests. I hope they will like it.
And now I sit back to practise writing down my new name :)

The only reason of not trying my wedding dress every day is just the fact that it is not here yet... I am very excited about the wedding and the whole moving into our new home. I can't believe that I will have my own home. There is something strange in typing home when you thing about a flat that is really yours. Not your parents' and not a rented flat but your own. My parents' house and my love's mother's house and even the sublet, I call all of them home, but this feels a lot different from them. I will live without my parents, I will pay my really own bills. I will have my own family where I will be the parent not the child. Do you think that I am happy?

How Can I Call You

I wrote down my new name for the first time today. It is a bit strange but feels very good. I know that I will love it. It shows that I belong to someone I love. I feel strange today. This is a kind of happiness I have never felt before. I don't care about anything else but myself and my new life.
I am trying to find some pictures to show what kind of wedding I imagine. If I find something I will post them.

Counting down - 23 days left

The parents' meeting was good. We ate a delicious lunch at the restaurant where the wedding lunch will be served. I hope I can give him some better memories about that place than he has now. Better in my point of view of course. It's going to be better for it will be in connection with me not somebody else. That place always be the place of our wedding.
I am quietly happy. There are no harsh reactions, no big chats with anybody. I am just happy about starting our really own life.
The parents' liked each other I think. They were friendly and could agree everything about the wedding. We also have some surprises for the quests. We have found some kind of traditions in Debrecen which they will surely enjoy.
I am preparing for the big day with a lot of relaxing. I even have to prepare the wedding favors for the guests. It will be much fun. :)
And among all things I am preparing for another thing which will start two weeks after the wedding... But I won't tell what it is... not yet.

I am Getting Married

27 days left...

I did not imagine this wedding as it will be. We wanted a small ceremony with only two witnesses and the parents. And now we have a 50-60 person party with family, friends and a lot of things to do. But one thing won't change. It will be a personal and unique occasion. This is my wedding and I want it to be memorable for me and my love first of all. So there won't be the usual music, dance or any superstitions. It will be a wedding which we will spend with people who are important to us.

We have some time to rest. We have chosen the restaurant, the menu, the witnesses, the program. We have a lot of creativity in the preparing so we will have a unique wedding. And tomorrow we have lunch with our parents.

I never thought I would be in this situation. Any time I have thought of my future self I saw a housewife or a mother, but never a wife of somebody. There was no man in the picture. This does not means that I am not happy now. Of course I am happy. I'm going to get married and become the wife of my beloved. But this situation is somehow strange for me. I'm going to do my best to be a good wife. And please excuse me for not changing my nick after the wedding... :)

How to Organize a Wedding in a Week

1st day: Get a couple who wants to get married. Pick a date. Tell the parents.

2nd day: Start to organize a small ceremony with 4-6 guests. Get phone calls from the parents. Get depressed.

3rd day: Start to organize a bigger ceremony with 20 guests. Buy wedding dresses and suits. Get depressed about the prices. Pick the restaurant and order the meal and the cake. Ask a sister to make the bouquet, phone the guest and ask them not to bring presents.

4th day: Choose music, set the sitting order. Ask a brother to draw the sitting cards. Pick some quotations for the sitting cards.

5th day: Pay the ceremony bill, fix the music, the number of guests and the meal. Buy a pair of shoes and some other missing things. Buy paper for the sitting cards and print them.

6th day: Fix the date for the parents' meeting. Get a haircut. Buy a hairpin. Reserve room for the guest who want to arrive a day before the wedding or want to stay a day after it. Get tired.

7th day: Relax. You have 4 weeks before the wedding ceremony.

Communication Forbidden

If you think you know how much happiness you can feel, you will be surprised. It is much more you can imagine.

After a not too good but not at all simple weekend this Monday is a real improvement. This weekend we travelled a lot. On Friday we went from Debrecen to Budapest by train (239 km). On Sunday we travelled from Budapest to Sárospatak also by train (239 km), then from Sárospatak to Semjén by car (35 km), then from Semjén to Kisvárda (20 km), then from Kisvárda to Debrecen by train again (100 km). It was nearly 300 km a day and more than 500 km for a weekend. And it took a lot of time too. I got a headache in the evening and after all this we had to run to a lot of offices. But I can tell that everything is all right. (And this is the only thing I am allowed to tell now :))


I am happy. :)

Feelings

I daren't be happy. Not yet. I have to wait till tomorrow. I can only hope and pray for a beautiful future. I'm tired to ask why is our life so hard. It should mean something. Maybe that we have to fight for happiness. If this is the case, we will. And everything is all right. Always. This is what I learned yesterday. Even if the sun of life disappears, even if the sky stops being blue, even if God shows a harder way, we will get home. We don't need to find all answers. It's not necessary to know everything about the world or our lives. Our job is to live. To do everything we can for living a better life.

When I look at my ring, I see your smile, my dear. Your eyes tell me that our future is here. We need to take one more step to reach it. Hard times and sudden decisions made us grow up. We are adults now. With all the problems and happiness. But I know that we can do anything for we will do it together.

Let's have a successful day tomorrow.

Choices

I chose you, my dear. Anything happens today or this week I won't change my choice. I can be an adult if I have to and can be a child if it's needed. My feelings are strong and I can do anything for them. We will be happy, I know.

Homesick

Every pain, every doubt, every problem seems disappearing while being with you.

I Need to Forget Some Things

I need to mind my own life - why is it so difficult for everyone?
I should be happy with my life - why is it so complicated after all?
I don't want to feel this. Why am I so doubtful? You don't make it easy for me...

Longest Mistake Ever

How long can you believe in something that is impossible? I could do so for 4.5 years.

Worst Feelings Ever

Getting hurt
Thinking that my father does not love me
Feeling miserable about hurting a friend

Feeling Love

I slept in his sweater to feel his smell. I really miss him, when we don't sleep together. I need his arms around me. He said yesterday that this could be because I could only sleep in my father's arms when I was a baby. Maybe he's right. But I think this is "only" the fact that I need to feel his love next to me. As I fell his love when he's with me.

Being Happy

I am happy. I could explain why but I won't. It's just a fact. It is about love of course. :P
And I can tell you, being happy is good.

Memories

I remember a little house and two old persons. I really liked them. Why have they come into my mind? Because of him. He came into my mind actually. And I saw that he is not online. An the next thought was that he is at their place. I miss them in some way. Yes. I miss them.

Happy New Day

The Sun always rises. I always realise that I am mad when I am tired. But I even always forget this when I am tired. After some sleep everything is all right. Thanks to Enya I don't have a head-ache any more. I am ready to change the world. First I will do my best to prepare for my classes. Yes, that's what I am going to do.

Eating is Good for Your Nerves

Trust me. After a good dinner all the world seems nicer.

I Want to Kill Somebody

No comment. It doen't matter whom. I want to destroy. I need to do something with this energy.

Having Fun?

I wanted exactly this. I wanted to be a PhD student and a useful member of the society. But now I am tired and have a lot of problems. This is just the end of the first week and I have so much things to do that I cannot fulfil. I have to create some things for my lessons and have to start my studies with analysing some books and articles. And I don't know how to start. I help everybody but who will feel that they should help me? I am tired.

Sometimes Crying Helps

This is not that time. I am tired and he were tired too. I should not think about it, just go to bed. Why can I not do that? Thus I am tired. I will sleep now.

First Day at Hell?

We started the new semester. The day was a mess, but there were a lot of good things. But I am tired to write about them. I am afraid of some things but I am also happy about this semester. I started a new life. :)

Surprises

I decided to make some surprises. I combine creativity with the fact that the person I want to give it loves some things. Do not think about big things. It is only a way to show my love. I hope he will like it. But before that he has to wait some days...

New Week New Hope

I am such a fool in a lot of ways, but I will only write down one of them. I left my diploma at home. This would not be a problem if I have no need for that. But I have. I was a bit angry yesterday when I realised it. Especially because if I had read that letter at home I had no problem. But after getting up it came into my mind that my parents come to Nyíregyháza tomorrow, so I asked them to bring my diploma. I only have to go there to get it. It is not so long as going home.

Love

Every man should show his love. Toward his mother, his wife or beloved and his daughter. They are women who unconditionally love him. But they are women. So they need some confirmation about that he loves them. Why does he not see this? Why can I not see that this is a lost war? Why can I not stand it without tears? Why?

Life is Good

I have found the solution for my health problem. I am very happy about it. I was really afraid of what I will do in that problematic week. No, I am sure, you misunderstood me, but it was close. :P

I don't Care about Anyone - I am Happy

Well, it was a short weekend with a lot of travelling. I love Hungarian State Railways. 3 hours form Debrecen to Budapest (fortunately they drove us home by car), and 5! hours back. I am very tired.
After all, it was a good weekend. We were at his mother's. He could talk to his brother - I know he really misses him. But good news is that he comes to Debrecen in 2 weeks time. And I talked to his mother. It was a surpise in a way. But this is long story, and I won't talk about it now.
I am happy. And anyone who don't like this can go to hell. :P

I am too Sensitive

My cousin is engaged. I talked to her yesterday. She sent me a photo of her ring. It is a nice one, white gold with some crystal.
At the same time I am trying to help my sister to organize her wedding. Yesterday was interesting. I found a lot of funny pictures and realised how expensive a wedding is. I don't understand why to spend so much money for one party.
After all, I am happy about their happiness. My problem is, that I always cry in touching moments. And I will do my best that my sister's wedding be touching. And I am sure that I will cry. I told you, I am too sensitive.

I am not Against Marriage, I am Against the Wedding

Today's question: Why do we think that we should (must?) pay millions for a one-day party? Will anyone be happier after an expensive wedding? Even if you pay a year' salary or more for that? Are we stupid or what?

I am Happy

I am tired. But this is good, as we were at a party yesterday. It was cool. We didn't dace much - I really want to have some dance lessons -, but after we got home, we did something that was planned since winter... :P He made me very happy. And I hope, I made his day perfect.
I love him!

Life Can be Very Hard

Have you ever realised that when we have a problem the whole world is full of that topic. I heard a song that brought up some memories. I don't think I have ever mentioned this before.

It was December. A very difficult period of my life. I realised that I am not in love with the boy I live with. It was of course not a second to get sure of it. But I met someone else. A man who I knew for about a year, but he never was more than a friend. But after a while and some parties and dates I started t feel something strange.

Now I know well that it is possible to love two men at the same time - for about 5 minutes. This 5 minutes is for deciding. This five minutes' time is a special period in everyone's life. My five minutes took a month.

It was my last year at the university, exam period, before Christmas - what else do you need to take a good decision. And what made me decide? A lot of things. The time I spent with both of them. The Christmas presents I got from them - it was not at all a material reason; I will explain it. And those chats with them during the Christmas holiday.

When you live with a man who is out to work form 9 to 4 and then he goes to have a drink with his friend, then goes to swim with them - not with you even if he knows you love swimming - it can be easy to feel miserable with him. And after all these he does not want you as a woman. It was a hard time. After this, and after 4,5 years of our relationship he bought me a Swarovski cristal statue. It was nice and expensive. But he should know after 3 years that we lived together that I hate these things. Well, it seems he didn't. And after I phoned him to say thanks he said that he want me to bring it back and put it on my table to see it every day. That was the point I should sent him to hell. But I didn't. It was Christmas. But every time I turned on the radio, I heard the same song. This one: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/rihanna/unfaithful.html

On the other side, there was another man. He is kind. He was kind to me at that time when my partner didn't. We danced together at a Santa Party and after some day he invited me to a museum.
OFF:
(it's not really off but it is about my boyfriend at that time) there was an exhibition in Budapest which I really wanted to see - Monet and his Friends; an Impressionist Exhibition. I asked my boyfriend to come with me, but he didn't even want to hear about that. I hated these kind of things.
ON:
So, we went to the museum, watched a lot of exhibitions, among all three famous paintings of Munkácsy, and I felt myself very well. When he hugged me, I felt his deep feelings, warm and kindness. I wanted to cry, run away and stay at the same time. I asked him to wait for my decision. He waited - more than I could imagine. After going back to the university he gave me his present for Christmas. It was a drawing he made on his own, and a kind of poem he wrote. I cried when I opened it at home.

And then, one day before Christmas, I got an email from him with only one word: Szeretlek. That was the last minute of hesitating. I knew I love him and want to be with him.

After this I started to plan how to finish my current relationship. It is a long story, but it is not for today. It is over, and now I am happy with the man I love and who loves me too.

This is my love story.

Today's Wise Saying

"you never get a second chance to make a first impression"

How to Look Like a Teacher

I had some conversations with my family and friends about my new status at he university. I will be a PhD student and a teacher, and they think I don't have the right look for that.
So, I need to refresh my clothes and start to wear some make-up. Okay, I will.
I have already bought some clothes and I will buy more in the next days. I want to look like a professional. I will be elegant but nice and will do my best to be a good student and teacher.
Let it be.

Love and Jealousy

Why are we jealous? I mean why are people of my age jealous? We love someone, maybe we live with them, do a lot of things together, but why should we be jealous? If our partner does not love us, they should leave us. And we should do so too when not feeling the same love any more.
Jealousy is stupidity. If I love someone, I love him and don't want to be with anyone else. Don't want anyone else to touch me or to kiss me or even to tell me lovely words. I love only that man. That's why I don't understand why we are jealous. If we could be honest to each other there would be no more jealousy in the world.
So, everyone. Stop being jealous and start being honest. That should be the solution.

Hmmm. This post is a bit messed up. But who cares. :P

Emily Bronte: Wuthering Heights

'I love the ground under his feet, and the air over his head, and everything he touches, and every word he says. I love all his looks, and all his actions, and him entirely and altogether. There now!'

Surprise

I got a surprising "good night message" yesterday evening. It was not the message itself, that surprised me, but the sender. We don't really send messages to each other and we didn't meet in three weeks. I don't know how I came into his mind to send a message. It just happened. But it made me smile this morning. :)

I am too Young to Be a Spinster

My mother made me feel that I am a spinster. One of my former classmates is getting married next Saturday, my sister's wedding will be next year. But nobody knows when my weddig will be. I don't know why it is so important. I am only 24. Nobody should tell me when it is time to get married.

One Day I'll Fly Away

I follow the night
Can't stand the light
When will I begin to live again

One day I'll fly away
Leave all this to yesterday
What more could your love do for me
When will love be through with me
Why live life from dream to dream
And dread the day when dreaming ends

One day I'll fly away
Leave all this to yesterday
Why live life from dream to dream
And dread the day when dreaming ends

One day I'll fly away
Fly fly away...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6PdYsvMXcco

One Day at the End of the World

I bougth a self phone today. It's a Sony-Erricsson Z310i model, nearly pink, rather cherry-like. I will love it, but now it is a little bit strange. It's not at all similar to my other phone. I have already sent my first sms with it. Guess to whom :P

We bought some vaccine today too. I will got an injection on Friday. Looking forward to it :(

I nearly bought a bag for my laptop too. But they were not my cup of tea, so this shopping will be for another day.

I got nothing to do today. Really nothing. It is boring after a while. I am tired.

Les Miserables

On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone, I walk with him till morning
Without him
I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me

In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me for ever and forever

And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there's a way for us

I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone, the river's just a river
Without him the world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers

I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life I've only been pretending
Without me his world will go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known!

I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own.

Vocabulary

Jealousy typically refers to the thoughts, feelings, and behaviors that occur when a person believes a valued relationship is being threatened by a rival. This rival may have no knowledge that he or she is threatening the relationship.

Feelings

I felt something strange yesterday. I was in my room, lying on my bed, reading a book. And I felt myself at home. I know it sounds rediculous, but I was frightened of this feeling. Then a strange thought came into my mind. I felt I will never leave my parents' house. It is stupidity, I know, but it was really frightening.

I drew some drafts this afternoon. They were about things I'm going to make for my sister's wedding. I really like drawing. And I know that I will like making these things too. I never thought I would. But now I am happy as I can help her. She is my sister, and I love her.

I made some food today. I was alone in the kithcen, mixing an egg with some milk and sugar and I had a strange feeling. I can't explain it, nor I can describe it. It was like I was in my own kitchen not in my mother's. I am at home, but this was not that kind of 'feeling myself at home' thing. I don't know what I should think about it.
Who can tell me what is happening to me?

Friends

She was a child and he was not an adult man yet. She loved him. He didn't know how he feels. He loved another one. Maybe more than one girl. Or maybe he did not know what he really wanted. They started a relationship. It seemed to work for a while. At the begining he did not really want it. But it was confortable for him. Then he became happy. It was a good period. Then it ended. She didn't want to finish it. He did. They broke up to be friends. He could do it. She couldn't. She loved him. But he already wanted something else. Maybe he had somebody else in his mind. A girl who returned into his thoughts periodically. Maybe it was only the girls opinion. They were friend for a while. It seemed ages. Maybe they were soulmates in a way. But she never wanted to be his girlfriend. He was better for being a friend of hers. She loved him like a brother but never thought about him as a boyfriend. It would disturb everything. He knew it too.
This is a difficult situation. And I don't know how to help these people.

Lives

There are three holes on my wall that make me remeber my former life. It was a long period with a lot of happy and unhappy memories, but I really want to put an end to it.

I got two new bookshelves. They make my room more confortable for me. The room is now really mine with them. And my books finally have a good place. Laci put them on the wall today but I have already fall in love with the new look of my room.

My day was very boring especially the afternoon, but I started to prepare for my sister's wedding. I have some very usable ideas for it, and she likes them too. I hope it will be so good as she wants. I will do my best to help them. :) Well, I need to find some good quotations...

Jason, I know you have a lot of work. I just want you to know that I miss you. I think you liked my room too...

Barbeque Party

We had a barbecue party on Wednesday. Some of my friends came and we spend a very good night together. Unfortunately Jason had some problems with his stomach, so he went to sleep early. But some of us did not sleep all over the night.
I realised again that I have difficult relationship with a friend. I cannot explain it why. But I will try to know about it much as I do not want it to become problematic for anyone.
The weather is hot 40 degree Celsius, so I just read and relax at home. Everyone should do it if they can. Have a nice weekend, everyone.

The Letter Has Arrived

From today I am officially a Ph.D. student at the University of Debrecen. :)

Today's Quotation

"You can like the life you're living, you can live the life you like"
-Chicago

Let's Start Summer Holiday

This school year has come to the end. But before I start my summer holiday, let me make some appraisal.

This was a long year with a lot of changes in my life. In September I started my last year at the university. I thought that my life was good, but then somebody came to show me, that I was wrong.
I had a very bad winter holiday with a lot of doubt and self-examination, after which I finished my relationship.
In January I found myself and love again. Till that time I am balanced and happy. At least at most of the times.

Last week I got my diploma, and know I will start my last real summer holiday. I will translate at home in the summer. And in September I will start my PhD studies at Debrecen. I will do my best to become better in my work every day. And I will like living my life.

Graduation Ceremony Tomorrow

No comment. I will get my diploma and will make a speech.
I hope the weather will be nice.
I am too tired to be happy about it. Okay, I am happy. :)

I Had a Wonderful Day

I am happy. This day was miraculous. We started with a very special wake up. Then we had a coffee and some cakes at Morik Café. We stopped at the university for a while, then had dinner at Belgian Beer Café. After coming home we spent some time alone, loving each other.
I can only smile. :)

Who Cares the Past?

I love you, even if you were aggressive at nursery school.
I love you, even if you made some people cry.
I love you, even if you have friends I don't want to know.
I love you, even if you had girlfriends before me.
I love you, even if I don't know everything about you.
I love you, because you love me and only me.
And nobody can stagger my feelings.

Conscience

"Don't kill the world
don't let her down.
Do not destroy basic ground.
Don't kill the world
our means of life.
Lend ear to nature's cry.

Don't kill the world
She's all we have,
And surely is worth to save.
Don't let her die,
fight for her trees,
Pollution robs air to breathe.

Don't kill the world
help her survive
And she'll reward you with life
And don't just talk,
Go on and do the one, who wins is you.

Cherish the world,
A present from God
On behalf of all creatures,
made by the Lord
Care for the earth,
Foundation of life
Slow progress down help her survive"
- Boney M

95/100 points

I had my entrance interview today. I got 95 of 100 points. I am in :)
I am happy. So let's have party tonight.

Literary Classics

Today I bought Charles Dickens - Four Complete Novels of Literary Classics. This is one of my presents for the graduation ceremony.

Thanks, 妹!

Status: Technical Report Being Printed

I need to say thanks again to Jason as he prints my publication. I will bring it into the library tomorrow. :)

I Become a Translator

I registered myself as a translator at Business Team Translations Kft. They will call me if they accept my application.
I am trying to work. :)

Presents

I got a two person sushi set from my parents for my birthday. It is white, with black eating sticks and black and white bamboo maps. It really matches with my Chinese tea set.
It is so cool that I must make some sushi this week to try how it looks in it. :) I can't wait it.
I am so happy that everybody knows what I really want. (Actually it was me who chose this set, but it doesn't matter.)
From my sister and her boyfriend I got a pair of white slippers. She always know what I will like. (She likes the same.) And now I have a pair of slippers what she can borrow :P - we are luckily the same size. That's really good as I don't need to buy a blouse for my graduation ceremony as she lent me one of hers :)

Publication

I finished my first very own publication today. Thanks to Jason for correcting my mistypings :)
I am sad as I'm not able to print it at home. The prints are too noisy, I don't understand why. :(
But I will print it tomorrow in Debrecen. And today I will have some rest :)

Celebration

I am 24 today. Happy birthday to me! :)

Have a Nice Weekend!

For me weekend starts today. I have already started relaxing :).
But I have to pack up some of my clothes at the hostel. I bring them home. (This shows that I am consciously started the summer vacation :P)

This weekend will be a mess after all. We will start preparations for the graduation ceremony - it will be on 23th - and on Sunday will be my 24th birthday.

We come back to Debrecen on Monday. I have to bring my publication into the library and prepare for my entrance interview. I got the official letter about it yesterday.
I will be a PhD student!

皆, have a nice weekend!

Literary Classics

Today I bought a book. Charlotte and Emily Brontë - The Complete Novels. It is one of the Literary Classics series. It is a very nice book with leather cover. I really like it. And it was only 3500 Ft! It seems to be not very popular to read classics. But it is good for me. :) I can get these books cheaper.
There was another one at the book store: Dickens novels :) And I will get that as a present from my sister for my graduation ceremony. I am so lucky... :P (I asked her to buy this one :P)
So, I have now some novels to read. Have I mentioned before that I love reading?

PhD Entrance Interview on 14th

Yesterday I got to know that my entrance interview is on 14th, June. It is next Thursday. I do not say that I am afraid of it; it's just a little bit weird.
It seems that I do not want to stop studying. :) Maybe this is the truth.

It is Hard to Say Goodbye

I became a little bit sad now. I realised that my university studies are over. Even if I will become a PhD. student, it won't be the same. I will stand on the other side of the line. I will be rather a teacher than a student. For my friends, of course, as for my teachers I will be a higher level student - maybe a colleague, or somewhat.

I feel a bit lost. I don't know what will change and how. Till now I was happy about not being in need of searching for jobs. PhD studies are some kind of escape for me, but now, I feel that changes have come, no matter what I do for or against them. I became an adult. And I don't know what to do or how to start my life.

I need my friends being with me. Not to tell me what to do, just to be there and to hold my hand. Yes. I really need friends. And I especially need you, my love. I have never needed you so much before.

Scrapbook

We became graduated intellectuals... let's have a party.

And so, it started...

Somebody cannot stop working...

Jason


Csilla & VaPe


We love each other

I have a lot more photos. Maybe I will create a picasa album of them.

There Was a Party

We celebrated our diploma with friends.


It was a great party. We took more than 380 photos. This is one of my favourites. The great team (in alphabetical order): Anett, Csilla, EwiL and Jason.

I hope we'll always be friends.

I Have Become a Graduated Intellectual

I finished my university studies today. I got a five so my final grade is four. :)
Well, let's party tonight.
And tomorrow I'll get a notebook :) Thanks, daddy.

State Exam Tomorrow

Tomorrow is my very last exam as a university student. And after that we will have a party. :)
Everybody is welcome. Maybe I will post some photos after it.

Italian Food

Carbonara and Tuna salad. - I learn. We ordered it. :)

It Seems to be Exam Period - We Are Cooking

Let's make a little survey:

What do you do instead of preparing to your exams?
My answer is:

• cooking - today we bake bread
• dish washing
• watching films
• sleeping
• ... - I won't tell you more :P

And what is Your answer?

Writing State Exam Theorems

I started to work again. It is not studying any more, it's work. I have a heap of material to convert it into 29 theorems. Good luck to me. :)

Greek Food is Delicious

We cooked gyros today. It was cool. :)

It happened that I was bored and wanted to do something. First I thought that we should go outside, but then I had the idea to cook something. My sister cooks gyros every summer but now we tried to bake some pitas too.
We made 8 pitas and both ate 2 gyros. It was very delicious and even more rich. So now we are just hanging around.

We were cool again :)

1 Corinthians 13: 4-7

Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

In Memoriam Douglas Noël Adams - Towel Day

Towel Day is celebrated every May 25 as a tribute by fans of the late author Douglas Adams. The commemoration was first held in 2001, two weeks after his death on May 11, and since then has been extended to an annual event. On this day, fans carry a towel with them throughout the day. The towel is a reference to Adams's popular science fiction comedy series The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy. - Wikipedia

Let's Learn to Become a Geisha

So how can you incorporate the ancient practice of a geisha into your life? With some practice, patience and a little planning even the most dull relationship can get a healthy boost from this. Here are some great ideas to get you started:

1. Become the geisha girl - first and foremost you need to ensure that your attitude is good. Feel the power within yourself to be someone who can deliver sensuality to your partner. Begin by bathing in a hot bath lightly scented with jasmine or lavender. Dress in a short wrap or housecoat that is pretty and feminine. Slip on some pretty sandals or slippers.
   
   Take special attention to your makeup. Red lipstick is best. You want to accentuate the soft kissable heart that your mouth forms. If you have longer hair, pull it up off of your neck and tie it into a bun or another seductive style. Place perfume on a few select spots, nape of neck, between the breasts, behind your ears and on wrists, with a subtle and elegant perfume.
   
   
2. Find a spot in your home, most likely the living room, where there is adequate floor space and softer lighting. Place candles around the room where you want hints of light and play instrumental music softly in the background. Place two pillows on the floor on either side of a coffee table or something of similar height. Serve him a meal that is light and is full of flavor.
   
   
3. Once you are finished your meal sit down and enjoy an after dinner drink with him. Don't go excessive, you just want something that will further the relaxation for both of you. Now that you have both enjoyed your moments turn to him and become the person that you are aiming for.
   
   
4. With a bottle of massage lotion that has a nice exotic scent, such as lavender, vanilla or cocoa butter, ask him if he would like a massage. Remember, the most important thing is visual stimulation. Let him know that you are honored to be in his company. Look at him like only you would, with love, adoration and appreciativeness. Starting at his shoulders and neck, massage seductively down in a circular motion being careful to be gentle and light with your touch.
   
   
5. Ask him if he would like to hear an erotic tale while performing his massage. Within this erotic tale play out your fantasies with your characters and tell him what your deepest desires are. This is one of the key points that will lead to him to feeling like the master of his domain.
   
   
6. Once your story is finished you will probably both be in the mood for some sultry passion between the sheets. Kiss him gently and, while holding his hand and glancing at him appreciatively, lead him to the bedroom. Let him know that you have one more thing to make his night complete.
   
   
7. With lighted candles placed around the bedroom to offer enough light for him to see you, slip out of the robe that you are wearing and let the passion ignite!

What is a Geisha

An ancient art that has been rivaled by many, the geisha girl is one who allows men to feel as though they are royalty. They were taught within extremely strict guidelines how to make him feel as though he were the only one in the room. They learned to become masters of seductive traits. How to groom themselves with perfection, be attentive, smart, humorous and elegant. They took lessons in music, story telling, playing games and, most importantly, secrecy for that which was said while in their presence. They could allow the men who came to them the devotion of time, attention and respect that they deserved.

Surprisingly enough, geisha, though thought to be high paid servants or even prostitutes, offer no services other than what the person who has paid for their time requests. Most often, sex was not a factor. Men simply wanted to have the company of someone who would allow them to feel important and valuable.

Celebration

Happy name-day to Eszti.

Today's Secret

I'd like to have a nice afternoon.

I Need Some Rest

I did not sleep well in the last few weeks, so I am very tired. Tomorrow there will be an exam and a test, but I will only be an instructor there. Poor students... ;)
I am so happy to be free for some days. And I am in love. Everybody should be happy.
Yes. Life is good.

State Exam I Am Coming!

I finished my university studies today. Actually it's not true, as the state exam is on next Thursday. But it will be the easiest exam I ever had.
I am happy :D

We Wake Up to Have a Good Day

Good morning, everyone. And have a nice day.
Today is my last exam. After it I will rest a bit and then I should start preparing for my state exam. But that will not be today. :)

I Am Smarter Than Anybody Thought

At least I hope so. :)
But I really know more than people think. I am curious about things I want to know. And I get to know anything I want to. If I do not tell that I know something, it does not mean that I don't know it.
So nobody should try to make me fool. (I am fool myself. No need to make me fool.) I really appreciate honesty. Please be honest to me. (Nobody should feel that this is directly for them.)

Last Exam Tomorrow

Marketing :D
Tomorrow I can finish my studies. Except for the state exam. :)

I Got Ice-Cream

:)
We were at Morik Cafe, and I got ice-cream and ice tea. I am happy now. :) (And tired :P)
Maybe I get some rest now. Or alternatively... think what you want. :P

One More Exam

I got a 5 today and so have only one more exam before the IT state exam.
I am happy :)
Do I not deserve an ice-cream?

I Guess I Should Not Post Now

I am a bit crazy today. But every day has an end, and the sun will rise again tomorrow.

Auguries of Innocence

"To see a world in a grain of sand,
And a heaven in a wild flower,
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand,
And eternity in an hour."

 William Blake

Have a Nice Day

I am happy for I am loved. I know it and feel it too. Everyone should feel this. :) It's so good. My love sleeps next to me, and I can only smile when looking at him.
I am in love.

It is not Always for You

Sorry for make you feel bad. I was a bit angry. But it is not about you. Sorry...

I Want to Shout!!!

If you can not be honest, let me alone!

Symols

A smile represents friendship.
A hug symbolizes care.
A kiss means love.
A secret shows trust.
A ring stands for faith.

"Save The Last Dance For Me"

You can dance-every dance with the guy
Who gives you the eye, let him hold you tight
You can smile-every smile for the man
Who held your hand neath the pale moon light
But don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me

Oh I know that the music's fine
Like sparklin' wine,go and have your fun
Laugh and sing,but while we're apart
Don't give your heart to anyone
But don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me

Baby don't you know I love you so
Can't you feel it when we touch
I will never never let you go
I love you oh so much

You can dance,go and carry on
Till the night is gone
And it's time to go
If he asks if you're all alone
Can he walk you home,you must tell him no
'Cause don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darling,save the last dance for me

'Cause don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darling,save the last dance for me
Save the last dance for me
Save the last dance for me.

31. May - IT State Exam

Yes. I will definitely finish it! The state exam will be on 31. May. An after it there will be the PhD entrance exam and my first "not real" summer holiday.

I got to be an adult. But when will I feel it real?

Monday

New week, new world, new future.
No thoughts, no pain, no past.
There is nothing except for the sun.

I Have a Diploma

Yesterday I finished my first state exam in English - IT translation. I got a five and so my first diploma. My next state exam will be on 31th May or on 1st June.
I am very happy now. :)

Secret

I am in love.

Forget about Everyhing

No matter what you did before. No matter how many hearts were broken. I know that I am the last one. The only one. And I will be the winner of this game. And the prize is You. Your heart, your love and our happiness.
I forget all my problems. I do not care about the past. Neither yours nor mine. And I will be a maiko again. Without pain or sadness.
Yes, that's what I'm going to do... forget about everything.

Nightmares

I don't sleep well for some days. I dream about things I want to forget. Why is it so difficult?
I want to shout it, but I can't even whisper.

I do not Understand Men

Every man wants a woman or more than one. But none of them wants to get married. Even my father said - thus he has two daughters! - that girls make men marry them. This is funny.

My sister and her boyfriend bought a parcel to build a house. But he does not feel that he should propose. I really don't understand this.

I think I have no chance to get married in some years. I don't really know if I wanted to. But I want to know why men want women only for loose relationships and not for marriage.
Where is a man, who wants to be a husband and a father? Why do I feel that even my father did not want me to be born? All right, I know that he wanted. But...

I need a hug.

I Need to Write a CV

I need a CV for my PhD application and I do not know what kind of CV they want. :(
Hmmm... I have to talk to my teacher about this problem tomorrow. The application is due to Friday. And I also need to photo-copy all my certificates. But the main problem is the CV and the list of publications.
I will have a busy day tomorrow...

I Finished My Thesis!

Yes, that's right. Finally I finished it. I am very tired but also happy.

I am just about sending it to my teacher. Can't wait his reaction.

State Exam is Over

Well, it was not easy, but I could finish it in 2 and a half hours instead of 4. :)
Have a nice weekend!

State Exam Tomorrow

I have my English written state exam tomorrow. I am really afraid of it especially because I am tired after the cooking party yesterday.
The exam will take 4 hours (form 11:00 to 15:00) and it contains Hungarian-English and English-Hungarian translation and translation correction modules. It will be very tiring...

Cooking Competition

Yesterday there was a cooking competition at the university. We cooked fish-soup and noodles with cottage cheese. We also served Chardonney with the soup. Everybody said it was delicious. We finished at the second place and won a family-size pizza.
Thanks to everyone who helped: (in alphabetical order) Anett, Anita, Botond, Ew, Iggy, Jason, Leho, Mizsala, Plutoka, Subbye, Symore, Tushee.

Celebration

Happy Birthday to Eszti and Happy Name-Day to my father!

Memories

Sometimes memories make us know how lucky we are. After thinking them over our past decisions seem clearer than before and we realise how much we gave for the happyness we have. It is not questionable that it was worth it.

It's Good to Have Friends

Thank you, boys. For everything. :)
I am very happy to have such people around me. And I will always do my best to keep these relationships as they are.
I'm... I'm just happy...

Testing E-mail Service

Hi.
I am just testing if Jason can get an e-mail when I publish a post. :P

Celebration

Happy name-day to me!

It could be happier if I didn't have to learn and I wasn't alone. But I will not be sad for that, because I will get my diploma in 2 month. :)

We are Eating Sushi!

So, are we cool or are we cool?

Recipe: Maki (巻き寿司 - makizushi) ~60 pieces
0.5 kg rice
10 pcs of nori
1 cucumber
2 mushrooms
1 Californian paprika
1 tin of tuna
1 tin of cuttle-fish

You cook the rise, cool it with cold water and make it sour with some vinegar. After this you put a nori onto a bamboo mat, put some rise onto the nori and any combinations of the vegetables and the fish onto the rise. Then you make a roll with the help of the bamboo and cut yout maki into thick slices.
Eat with soy sauce and wasabi.

Coconut balls: You cook the rise with sugar and coconut and make balls of it. You can put some coconut on the top of the balls if you like.

It was a successful day. I am very proud of us. Everything was good. Ok, not everything.

Note that never let your nori wet if you want to use it later :P

Shopping Succeeded

I am HAPPY!!!
It was not an easy trip but I could get everything - at least I hope so - that will be needed to make some delicious sushi.
I hope that the "cooking" phase will be as much fun as this shopping was. :)

Shopping

Well, let's do the shopping for our sushi dinner. I hope I will be able to get everything I need...

Me and My Beloved

Aren't we a perfect match?

Choices of Life

Today I chose to become a maiko.

It is not a fashion thing or somewhat. I just want to live so that I can make my beloved feel special. And that is what geisha are for, as I see.

As I am a European girl, I can never become a real geisha but fortunately there are a lot of things to help me to become similar to them.

First thing I am going to do is to learn how to make sushi. I was at Wasabi with my beloved and he enjoyed it so much that I decided to learn how to make that kind of meal. Actually I already have a Japanese cooking book and we found a shop which sells far eastern food and spices so this mission is not so hopeless as it sounds.
Maybe I will post some photos if I succeed.

Till that, if you want to order sushi in Hungary (Budapest or Debrecen) visit: http://wasabi.hu/

Maiko?

Apprentice geisha are called maiko. This word is made of the kanji 舞 (mai) meaning "dancing" and 子 or 妓 (ko) meaning "child". - Wikipedia.