It is Hard to Say Goodbye

I became a little bit sad now. I realised that my university studies are over. Even if I will become a PhD. student, it won't be the same. I will stand on the other side of the line. I will be rather a teacher than a student. For my friends, of course, as for my teachers I will be a higher level student - maybe a colleague, or somewhat.

I feel a bit lost. I don't know what will change and how. Till now I was happy about not being in need of searching for jobs. PhD studies are some kind of escape for me, but now, I feel that changes have come, no matter what I do for or against them. I became an adult. And I don't know what to do or how to start my life.

I need my friends being with me. Not to tell me what to do, just to be there and to hold my hand. Yes. I really need friends. And I especially need you, my love. I have never needed you so much before.