Surprises

I decided to make some surprises. I combine creativity with the fact that the person I want to give it loves some things. Do not think about big things. It is only a way to show my love. I hope he will like it. But before that he has to wait some days...

New Week New Hope

I am such a fool in a lot of ways, but I will only write down one of them. I left my diploma at home. This would not be a problem if I have no need for that. But I have. I was a bit angry yesterday when I realised it. Especially because if I had read that letter at home I had no problem. But after getting up it came into my mind that my parents come to Nyíregyháza tomorrow, so I asked them to bring my diploma. I only have to go there to get it. It is not so long as going home.

Love

Every man should show his love. Toward his mother, his wife or beloved and his daughter. They are women who unconditionally love him. But they are women. So they need some confirmation about that he loves them. Why does he not see this? Why can I not see that this is a lost war? Why can I not stand it without tears? Why?

Life is Good

I have found the solution for my health problem. I am very happy about it. I was really afraid of what I will do in that problematic week. No, I am sure, you misunderstood me, but it was close. :P

I don't Care about Anyone - I am Happy

Well, it was a short weekend with a lot of travelling. I love Hungarian State Railways. 3 hours form Debrecen to Budapest (fortunately they drove us home by car), and 5! hours back. I am very tired.
After all, it was a good weekend. We were at his mother's. He could talk to his brother - I know he really misses him. But good news is that he comes to Debrecen in 2 weeks time. And I talked to his mother. It was a surpise in a way. But this is long story, and I won't talk about it now.
I am happy. And anyone who don't like this can go to hell. :P

I am too Sensitive

My cousin is engaged. I talked to her yesterday. She sent me a photo of her ring. It is a nice one, white gold with some crystal.
At the same time I am trying to help my sister to organize her wedding. Yesterday was interesting. I found a lot of funny pictures and realised how expensive a wedding is. I don't understand why to spend so much money for one party.
After all, I am happy about their happiness. My problem is, that I always cry in touching moments. And I will do my best that my sister's wedding be touching. And I am sure that I will cry. I told you, I am too sensitive.

I am not Against Marriage, I am Against the Wedding

Today's question: Why do we think that we should (must?) pay millions for a one-day party? Will anyone be happier after an expensive wedding? Even if you pay a year' salary or more for that? Are we stupid or what?

I am Happy

I am tired. But this is good, as we were at a party yesterday. It was cool. We didn't dace much - I really want to have some dance lessons -, but after we got home, we did something that was planned since winter... :P He made me very happy. And I hope, I made his day perfect.
I love him!

Life Can be Very Hard

Have you ever realised that when we have a problem the whole world is full of that topic. I heard a song that brought up some memories. I don't think I have ever mentioned this before.

It was December. A very difficult period of my life. I realised that I am not in love with the boy I live with. It was of course not a second to get sure of it. But I met someone else. A man who I knew for about a year, but he never was more than a friend. But after a while and some parties and dates I started t feel something strange.

Now I know well that it is possible to love two men at the same time - for about 5 minutes. This 5 minutes is for deciding. This five minutes' time is a special period in everyone's life. My five minutes took a month.

It was my last year at the university, exam period, before Christmas - what else do you need to take a good decision. And what made me decide? A lot of things. The time I spent with both of them. The Christmas presents I got from them - it was not at all a material reason; I will explain it. And those chats with them during the Christmas holiday.

When you live with a man who is out to work form 9 to 4 and then he goes to have a drink with his friend, then goes to swim with them - not with you even if he knows you love swimming - it can be easy to feel miserable with him. And after all these he does not want you as a woman. It was a hard time. After this, and after 4,5 years of our relationship he bought me a Swarovski cristal statue. It was nice and expensive. But he should know after 3 years that we lived together that I hate these things. Well, it seems he didn't. And after I phoned him to say thanks he said that he want me to bring it back and put it on my table to see it every day. That was the point I should sent him to hell. But I didn't. It was Christmas. But every time I turned on the radio, I heard the same song. This one: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/rihanna/unfaithful.html

On the other side, there was another man. He is kind. He was kind to me at that time when my partner didn't. We danced together at a Santa Party and after some day he invited me to a museum.
OFF:
(it's not really off but it is about my boyfriend at that time) there was an exhibition in Budapest which I really wanted to see - Monet and his Friends; an Impressionist Exhibition. I asked my boyfriend to come with me, but he didn't even want to hear about that. I hated these kind of things.
ON:
So, we went to the museum, watched a lot of exhibitions, among all three famous paintings of Munkácsy, and I felt myself very well. When he hugged me, I felt his deep feelings, warm and kindness. I wanted to cry, run away and stay at the same time. I asked him to wait for my decision. He waited - more than I could imagine. After going back to the university he gave me his present for Christmas. It was a drawing he made on his own, and a kind of poem he wrote. I cried when I opened it at home.

And then, one day before Christmas, I got an email from him with only one word: Szeretlek. That was the last minute of hesitating. I knew I love him and want to be with him.

After this I started to plan how to finish my current relationship. It is a long story, but it is not for today. It is over, and now I am happy with the man I love and who loves me too.

This is my love story.

Today's Wise Saying

"you never get a second chance to make a first impression"

How to Look Like a Teacher

I had some conversations with my family and friends about my new status at he university. I will be a PhD student and a teacher, and they think I don't have the right look for that.
So, I need to refresh my clothes and start to wear some make-up. Okay, I will.
I have already bought some clothes and I will buy more in the next days. I want to look like a professional. I will be elegant but nice and will do my best to be a good student and teacher.
Let it be.

Love and Jealousy

Why are we jealous? I mean why are people of my age jealous? We love someone, maybe we live with them, do a lot of things together, but why should we be jealous? If our partner does not love us, they should leave us. And we should do so too when not feeling the same love any more.
Jealousy is stupidity. If I love someone, I love him and don't want to be with anyone else. Don't want anyone else to touch me or to kiss me or even to tell me lovely words. I love only that man. That's why I don't understand why we are jealous. If we could be honest to each other there would be no more jealousy in the world.
So, everyone. Stop being jealous and start being honest. That should be the solution.

Hmmm. This post is a bit messed up. But who cares. :P

Emily Bronte: Wuthering Heights

'I love the ground under his feet, and the air over his head, and everything he touches, and every word he says. I love all his looks, and all his actions, and him entirely and altogether. There now!'

Surprise

I got a surprising "good night message" yesterday evening. It was not the message itself, that surprised me, but the sender. We don't really send messages to each other and we didn't meet in three weeks. I don't know how I came into his mind to send a message. It just happened. But it made me smile this morning. :)