A Present from a Friend

I got a gold medal from one of my friends. It has its own story, maybe I will write it down some day, but now I am only happy about it. She was very kind wishing us a happy life. I want to feel that she really means so. Our relationship was not always trouble free, but I hope she thinks of me as a friend even if not one of the closests. I think of her like this. Thank you for everything, Anett.

Becoming a Lady

I'm going home tomorrow. This weekend will be longer and more useful for me thinking of the wedding. My sister will try to make my hair and I will try some make-up variations.
Among all this I will make some other things. I will finish my own-made album and I will make a sewing box for my sewing set. I should finish the wedding favors too, but I think I will make them next week.
I have to make another decision. My future mother-in-law suggested that we should bring our dresses to the pension she and the family will stay for the night before the wedding, and we should dress up there as it is closer to the town hall where the ceremony will take place. I really don't know what to do. It would be more comfortable, but I don't want to disturb them with my things as making my hair, my make-up, dresses and so on. I really don't know how many bathrooms we would need that morning. I think I will ask my family's opininon about this question.
I bring my veil home tomorrow too. I want my sister to make my hair so as to match with it. I want to look special. Maybe I really feel now as a bride should. I know that this weekend will help me feeling so even more. I will plan a lot of things and will prepare for our future life in our new home. I hope that everything will be all right. I know - everything is all right. :) I am really in love. And I am happy. :)

20 Days Left

It's not fair. They stole an hour of waiting from me - I need to wait one more hour till the wedding. But we have an extra hour to sleep now as we switch to winter time. Good night.

Starting Life

There is something exciting about shopping things into your new house. I bought our double duvet today. Actually I have just arrived at home. I am tired but happy. I walked to the house and they are just daubing the walls. I measured that the nearest supermarket is for 5 and the Tesco is for 15 minutes walking from the house. It is not so bad. I am confident now as I saw that they are working on the house. I am looking forward the future...

I Have My Wedding Gown

Yesterday I brought it home. I tried it on at the shop and Anita became very excited about that. She said she likes it very much. (Anita is the girlfriend of my brother-in-law-to-be - nice word)
So my dress is in my wardrobe now and I can not try it on in every hour as it has a corset on its back, so I needed help to try it on. It doesn't matter. It is in my wardrobe. I am very happy about that. I also rented a fur coat for that day - I don't want to catch a cold. So I am ready to get married.
I talked to my sister yesterday and she said she has the design idea how to make my bouquet. Everything is all right now. I am happy.

Getting Excited

I'd rather dance over the whole flat now. I feel so much happiness that I cannot explain. Today I am going to have tea with my love, his brother and his brother's girlfriend. It will be a pleasant evening. And tomorrow I will buy our big "marriage" duvet (200x220 cm). I am very excited now. Why isn't my dress here to try it on every day? I can't wait till 17th November.

My Wedding

These are the photos I was looking for. Nothing special but the suit and the dress we will wear at the big day. It was a mess to get them, but everybody likes them who saw them.
I want this wedding to be a special occasion so there is no question about having the best things for it.
The whole wedding is to show who we are, that's why there won't be a party just a nice ceremony and an elegant lunch with the guests. I hope they will like it.
And now I sit back to practise writing down my new name :)

The only reason of not trying my wedding dress every day is just the fact that it is not here yet... I am very excited about the wedding and the whole moving into our new home. I can't believe that I will have my own home. There is something strange in typing home when you thing about a flat that is really yours. Not your parents' and not a rented flat but your own. My parents' house and my love's mother's house and even the sublet, I call all of them home, but this feels a lot different from them. I will live without my parents, I will pay my really own bills. I will have my own family where I will be the parent not the child. Do you think that I am happy?

How Can I Call You

I wrote down my new name for the first time today. It is a bit strange but feels very good. I know that I will love it. It shows that I belong to someone I love. I feel strange today. This is a kind of happiness I have never felt before. I don't care about anything else but myself and my new life.
I am trying to find some pictures to show what kind of wedding I imagine. If I find something I will post them.

Counting down - 23 days left

The parents' meeting was good. We ate a delicious lunch at the restaurant where the wedding lunch will be served. I hope I can give him some better memories about that place than he has now. Better in my point of view of course. It's going to be better for it will be in connection with me not somebody else. That place always be the place of our wedding.
I am quietly happy. There are no harsh reactions, no big chats with anybody. I am just happy about starting our really own life.
The parents' liked each other I think. They were friendly and could agree everything about the wedding. We also have some surprises for the quests. We have found some kind of traditions in Debrecen which they will surely enjoy.
I am preparing for the big day with a lot of relaxing. I even have to prepare the wedding favors for the guests. It will be much fun. :)
And among all things I am preparing for another thing which will start two weeks after the wedding... But I won't tell what it is... not yet.

I am Getting Married

27 days left...

I did not imagine this wedding as it will be. We wanted a small ceremony with only two witnesses and the parents. And now we have a 50-60 person party with family, friends and a lot of things to do. But one thing won't change. It will be a personal and unique occasion. This is my wedding and I want it to be memorable for me and my love first of all. So there won't be the usual music, dance or any superstitions. It will be a wedding which we will spend with people who are important to us.

We have some time to rest. We have chosen the restaurant, the menu, the witnesses, the program. We have a lot of creativity in the preparing so we will have a unique wedding. And tomorrow we have lunch with our parents.

I never thought I would be in this situation. Any time I have thought of my future self I saw a housewife or a mother, but never a wife of somebody. There was no man in the picture. This does not means that I am not happy now. Of course I am happy. I'm going to get married and become the wife of my beloved. But this situation is somehow strange for me. I'm going to do my best to be a good wife. And please excuse me for not changing my nick after the wedding... :)

How to Organize a Wedding in a Week

1st day: Get a couple who wants to get married. Pick a date. Tell the parents.

2nd day: Start to organize a small ceremony with 4-6 guests. Get phone calls from the parents. Get depressed.

3rd day: Start to organize a bigger ceremony with 20 guests. Buy wedding dresses and suits. Get depressed about the prices. Pick the restaurant and order the meal and the cake. Ask a sister to make the bouquet, phone the guest and ask them not to bring presents.

4th day: Choose music, set the sitting order. Ask a brother to draw the sitting cards. Pick some quotations for the sitting cards.

5th day: Pay the ceremony bill, fix the music, the number of guests and the meal. Buy a pair of shoes and some other missing things. Buy paper for the sitting cards and print them.

6th day: Fix the date for the parents' meeting. Get a haircut. Buy a hairpin. Reserve room for the guest who want to arrive a day before the wedding or want to stay a day after it. Get tired.

7th day: Relax. You have 4 weeks before the wedding ceremony.

Communication Forbidden

If you think you know how much happiness you can feel, you will be surprised. It is much more you can imagine.

After a not too good but not at all simple weekend this Monday is a real improvement. This weekend we travelled a lot. On Friday we went from Debrecen to Budapest by train (239 km). On Sunday we travelled from Budapest to Sárospatak also by train (239 km), then from Sárospatak to Semjén by car (35 km), then from Semjén to Kisvárda (20 km), then from Kisvárda to Debrecen by train again (100 km). It was nearly 300 km a day and more than 500 km for a weekend. And it took a lot of time too. I got a headache in the evening and after all this we had to run to a lot of offices. But I can tell that everything is all right. (And this is the only thing I am allowed to tell now :))


I am happy. :)

Feelings

I daren't be happy. Not yet. I have to wait till tomorrow. I can only hope and pray for a beautiful future. I'm tired to ask why is our life so hard. It should mean something. Maybe that we have to fight for happiness. If this is the case, we will. And everything is all right. Always. This is what I learned yesterday. Even if the sun of life disappears, even if the sky stops being blue, even if God shows a harder way, we will get home. We don't need to find all answers. It's not necessary to know everything about the world or our lives. Our job is to live. To do everything we can for living a better life.

When I look at my ring, I see your smile, my dear. Your eyes tell me that our future is here. We need to take one more step to reach it. Hard times and sudden decisions made us grow up. We are adults now. With all the problems and happiness. But I know that we can do anything for we will do it together.

Let's have a successful day tomorrow.

Choices

I chose you, my dear. Anything happens today or this week I won't change my choice. I can be an adult if I have to and can be a child if it's needed. My feelings are strong and I can do anything for them. We will be happy, I know.